My Last Few Lupron Shots & Feelings

This is the week I've been waiting for, the week where we transfer 1-2 strong embies and pray for miracles to happen! My emotions about the transfer are on an all-time high right now. I can't get over the fact that here I am, here "we" are, and soon (with Dr.D's help) we'll be creating life for a very deserving man.

Typically, I don't wear my heart on my sleeve nor do I let my emotions get the best of me, but I am so emotionally revved I cannot even fathom any word that could fit my exact emotion right now. I feel loved, bravery, strength, courage, perseverance, and more. I realize although I've been on the "journey" for eight months already, that the next phase is going to be the most exciting and most rewarding. Also, I know my IF and I are a bit anxious for everything to go just perfectly, but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about the 'what-if' it doesn't happen this time, then what. Well we all know-try again!

I wanted to share a picture too of the process for the Lupron shot - just a few pictures. As you know, I've been giving myself shots since late June 2009 and have already poked my stomach at least 35 times! Beginning this week though, I'll be poking myself in the rump with a much larger needle. I am trying not to worry about that because the needle is so much bigger than the Lupron needle. All I can say is, "WOW!" when I look at it through the nice, clear packaging...