New Cycle

Just to keep everyone updated, not that I have a lot of followers, but for the future too when I look back and say, "Wow...here's this beautiful baby." I'd like a reminder of what it took to get that baby here.

I started my second cycle of medications last Saturday, the 5th of September. Each morning I give myself the injection of Lupron, take my prenatal vitamins and bcp. Today is day 5 and my bcp. Aunt Flo should be visiting in the next few days which may make my first uterine lining check on Tuesday the 15th interesting. Hopefully by then it will almost be over with -yes, gross I know but when you have a vaginal ultrasound during AF it is not pretty nor fun. After the u/s, I will hopefully be able to reduce my Lupron and I'll begin a few other pills. I'll update on that next week.

A few other things have been going on with my journey. My IF has taken control of many things - I think this is his personality, but at the same time it makes me ride the roller coaster of emotions. I am trying to be understanding, forgiving, etc. but at the same time all of my IFs decisions effect me. We finally came to agreement on which airport and hotel I will stay at in October. Also, I will be able to rent a car which is the best. I did not like relying on the hotel shuttle, limo service or a cab when I was out in CT for my medical screening. The doctor told my IF there is no medical reason for me not to be able to drive back to Stamford after the transfer -phew, that was a triumph.

During this transfer though I will have more restrictions. I definitely will be eating hotel food the hotel time! Another reason why I chose the hotel in Stamford-their food rocks! I will be taking the smallest bag I have so it doesn't way much, and it is on wheels. Once I return I'll have to be careful not to pick up Cadie or anything else that weighs more than 15 lbs.

Recently my IF and I spoke on Skype, which for those of you who don't use it, Skype is amazing and it is free! We spoke about how many embryos to transfer and such. My IF said that we'll do three again this time and then keep three frozen just in case it doesn't work.

Well that was the plan until today when the clinic called and said my IF had a consultation with the doctor and my IF wants to go ahead with four! WHAT??? Four embryos -so what happens if they ALL take? What will I go thru? There is no way I am going to agree to this because the negatives definitely outway the positives and my IF doesn't want more then two children (in the beginning my IF only wanted one).

Since the first transfer failed I understand the "why" but everyone involved needs to be taken into consideration, and as I said, this is something I cannot agree to have done.

I am feeling a bit of stress now again because of the above mentioned topic-but overall I am really beginning to relax, I feel like I don't have any "unknowns" going into this transfer which is a HUGE relief.

One of these days...I know we'll have success :) Fluffiness and sticky vibes for the next 6 weeks is all I will be thinking about.