My Last Night Before...

Here I am at home trying to get ready for my 5-day stint in Connecticut/New York. I have so many clothes right now packed you would think I was leaving for 2 weeks. I looked at the weather to see what I should bring, but you know how predictable that is, so of course I have a bit of everything.

Luckily, after searching five stores I found a blow-up headrest at Wal-mart of all places. It was my last resort and only cost a whopping $5.00! Other than that I pretty much had everything I needed for the trip.

I'll finish packing tonight as much as I can, but then in the morning I'll have to toss in all the essentials. I really wish I didn't have to check my bag, but since I'll be taking my needles with me I don't have a choice.

Speaking of needles...ouch! This week has not been fun switching from the tiny needle used for the Lupron injections to the bigger, thicker needles used for the PIO. I still am surprised at how easy it is for me to prepare the needles and medicine, but I really am not good about giving the PIO shot quickly. The liquid is very thick so it takes awhile for it to come out of the syringe into my rump. One of the nurses I am working with has been a surrogate so she suggested warming the syringe in hot water before poking myself. This seems to help.

As for my rump, it is not in good shape and I am only 3 shots in! If we get a BFP, then I'll have to keep shooting my backside for another 7 weeks. By then I don't know if I'll have any "fresh" spots to poke. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that all of this will hopefully result in at least one healthy baby for my IF.

LUPRON PICTURES

LUPRON MEDICATION
My belly with a few bruises :(
Injecting the Lupron into 'fatty' tissue

My Last Few Lupron Shots & Feelings

This is the week I've been waiting for, the week where we transfer 1-2 strong embies and pray for miracles to happen! My emotions about the transfer are on an all-time high right now. I can't get over the fact that here I am, here "we" are, and soon (with Dr.D's help) we'll be creating life for a very deserving man.

Typically, I don't wear my heart on my sleeve nor do I let my emotions get the best of me, but I am so emotionally revved I cannot even fathom any word that could fit my exact emotion right now. I feel loved, bravery, strength, courage, perseverance, and more. I realize although I've been on the "journey" for eight months already, that the next phase is going to be the most exciting and most rewarding. Also, I know my IF and I are a bit anxious for everything to go just perfectly, but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about the 'what-if' it doesn't happen this time, then what. Well we all know-try again!

I wanted to share a picture too of the process for the Lupron shot - just a few pictures. As you know, I've been giving myself shots since late June 2009 and have already poked my stomach at least 35 times! Beginning this week though, I'll be poking myself in the rump with a much larger needle. I am trying not to worry about that because the needle is so much bigger than the Lupron needle. All I can say is, "WOW!" when I look at it through the nice, clear packaging...